Monday, October 25, 2010


Well today, in the midst of party playing and preparation AF showed her ugly head! Not only did I NOT want her to come, but PERFECT timing....Grrrr! Lets make my week a little harder and more hectic!
THANKS a LOT AF! You're a B****!

Friday, October 22, 2010

My Job Description

Position: Mom, Mommy, Mama, Ma, Dad, Daddy, Dada, Pa, Pop

Job Description: Long-term team players needed for challenging, permanent work in an often-chaotic environment. Candidates must possess excellent communication and organizational skills and be willing to work variable hours, which will include evenings and weekends and frequent 24-hour shifts on call. Some overnight travel required, including trips to primitive camping sites on rainy weekends and endless sports tournaments in far away cities. Travel expenses not reimbursed. Extensive courier duties required.

Responsibilities: Must possess the physical stamina of a pack mule and be able to go from zero to 60mph in three seconds flat just in case, this time, the screams from the backyard are not someone just crying wolf. Must be willing to face stimulating technical challenges, such as small gadget repair, mysteriously sluggish toilets, and stuck zippers. Must screen phone calls, maintain calanders, and coordinate production of multiple homework projects. Must be willing to bite tongue repeatedly. Must have ability to plan and organize social gatherings for clients of all ages and mental outlooks. Must be willing to be indispensable one minute and an embarrassment the next. Must handle assembley and product safety testing of a half million cheap, plastic toys and battery operated devices. Must always hope for the best but be prepared for the worst. Must assume final, complete accountability for the the quality of the end product. Responsibilities also include floor maintenance and janitorial work throughout the facility.

Possibility for Advancement and Promotion: None. Your job is to remain in the same position for years, without complaining, constantly retraining and updating your skills, so that those in your charge can ultimately surpass you.

Terms of Service: The rest of yourlife.

Previous Experience: None required. On-the-job training offered on a continually exhausting basis.

Wages and Compensation: Get this--you pay them! Offering frequent raises and bonuses. A balloon payment is due when they turn eighteen, because of the assumption that college will help them become financially independent. When you die, you give them whatever is left. The oddest thing about this reverse-salary scheme is that you actually enjoy it and wish you could do more.

Benefits: While no health or dental insurance, no pension, no tuition reimbursement, no paid holidays, and no stock options are offered, this job supplies limitless opportunities for personal growth, unconditional love, and free hugs and kisses for life, if you play your cards right.

I did not write this......BUT it is SO TRUE!

Getting over a fear one way or another

So I am the BIGgest baby when it comes to needles and shots! My Dad use to get so mad at me when I would through a fit over a shot, at 16....LOL! I do not have any tattoos for this reason. And it took me a long time to get my ears pierced and I cried like a baby.  I do have my belly button pierced too, but there was some drinking involved. But I was still a big baby about it.
Anyways the point of this post is this....
I went to an obgyn specialists Wednesday about my blood clotting blood work. I do have a blood clotting disorder. My Homocysteine levels are higher then they should be. I have MTHFR. Now don't ask me anything about it, because it is like a foreign language. I was following everything the Dr. was saying, but I can not relay it all back. What I under stand is that this blood problem could (most likely) be the cause of my miscarriages. And that leads me to how we will prevent another miscarriage.
Needles!!!! And a LOT of them!
The Dr. told me that my best bet is to take Lovenox injections TWICE a day my WHOLE next pregnancy! That is right..... OVER 500 shots! I am freaking out a bit! I will do whatever it takes to have a healthy baby but the thought of the shots scare me. Maybe it wont be as bad as I think will. And hey, I might even be able to get a tattoo after this is all said and done. I guess I will have to see when the day comes. No reason to get nervous yet.....RIGHT?!?!

Oh and on top of the Lovenox injections, I will be on a prenatal vitamins (of course), extra folic acid, and a baby aspirin. Should be fun...HAHA!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Coming together to remember our babies!

Last Sat. (10-16-2010) I spent the day with wonderful people!
People that all had one thing in common!
We were all there to remember our lost babies!

We walked for our babies!
 We wrote notes to our babies!
 We released butterflies for our babies!
One for each of my Babies!
 We watched them fly away!

It took some longer then other!
Almost as if they didn't want to leave!
Then later in that day, some of us met in a beautiful park.
On a beautiful bridge, over a beautiful pond.
We released balloons for each of our babies!
My babies mixed in with a bunch of other angels!

Friday, October 15, 2010

WE Remember!

October 15th...Today is for you!

Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Today we remember all babies whom we carried but never met, all babies born sleeping, those we have held but could not take home, or those that came home but did not stay nearly long enough.
Tomorrow I will walk in the memory of my lost babies! And also in the memory of my great grandmother's baby. We will also be releasing butterflies!

Walk to Remember

We walk to remember the steps they'll never take.  
Empty Arms Infant Loss Support Group is hosting Dothan, Alabama's 1st Annual Walk To Remember in recognition of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. The ceremony allows bereaved parents and their families to honor the lives of our babies lost through miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant death, and promote community awareness on the occurrence of Pregnancy and Infant Loss.

The ceremony will include a ½ mile walk, memorial service with the reading of each baby's name, and conclude with a butterfly release.
Event Information
•October 16, 2010

•Dothan Kiwanis Park at Westgate Park, 501 Recreation Rd. Dothan Alabama

•Onsite registration begins @ 9:30

•Ceremony Begins @ 10:00

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

CD 13

Well here I am on CD13! We BD on CD9, CD11,CD12, and plan  tonight (and maybe the next night). I have given up on swaying for a girl. I just want a healthy baby. So we will see what happens. I had 2 lines this morning the same color. So our timing should be good (I hope).

This is a cheap dollar store brand test the colors are not as bright as the other test.
So fingers and toes crossed for a July baby!

Mine is bigger then yours

Scar that is! After reading a post on one of my favorite blogs about scars (you can read HERE), it had me thinking about one of my childhood scars. I have a few but the one that draws most attention is the one on my wrist. I think when most people see it they think I have tried to kill myself. That is not what happened! When I was ten I got cut by a big piece of glass. It was one of those times where I were in the wrong place at the wrong time. I was playing with one of my friends, at her house, and her teenage bothers had a few friends over. We were all horse-playing around, when one of the boys slammed the front glass storm door. I was standing off to the side. The door shattered. We all look around at each other in shock, waiting to see who was going to get in trouble for the busted door. As I stood there I felt something run down my hand. When I looked my hand was covered in blood, dripping on to the ground. I started screaming and ran across the street to my house. When I ran in the door screaming and bleeding my mother freaked out. She grabbed the toilet paper (not the best choice) and wrapped it around my wrist. We then ran across the street to where my grandparents lived. They had to pin me down to clean it out and find were all the blood was coming from...oh and pull the pieces of toilet paper that stuck to it off. They rushed me off to the ER.
It turned out that I only came centimeters from hitting my main arteries. I ended up needing a skin graph. So I had surgery to remove skin off of my butt to put on my arm. I got 132 stitches. And this killer scar....

Doesn't it make me look dangerous..LOL!
So now when ever anybody makes me mad I can tell them to kiss my ass right here *holding up my wrist*!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Maybe July......

We Andy and I have been trying for another baby the past 2 months. But we really haven't been trying hard. I have not been temping or taking OPTs. And last month AF decided to be almost 3 weeks late....weird. But AF showed her face on Oct. 1st. And boy was she here with avengence. So I have been keeping tack of my CDs. I told Andy that I wanted to do it EOD for 2 weeks. HAHA I knew he would not be down with that much I checked my CM last night and noticed that it was getting stringy.  So we really stated trying last night. Today I took an OPT and I go a light line. I plan to go to the store and get a few more this afternoon (I used my last one).
So I plan to keep up the hard work of making a! If all goes well.....I might (hope and pray) be having another baby in July! My HEDD is July 8. Not real crazy about the heat in July, in South Alabama, but I really want a healthy bay and would take at anytime. :)

*Here are some pregnancy acronyms I might use*
 2WW=two week wait (time after ovulation before you can take a pregnancy test)
 AF=Aunt Flo (e.g. menstrual period)
 BBT=basal body temperature (used to calculate a woman's fertile days)
 BCP=birth control pill
 BD=baby dance (sex)
 BFN=big fat negative (on a pregnancy test)
 BFP=big fat positive (pregnancy test)
 CD=cycle day
 CM=cervical mucous (conducts sperm to the egg)
 DPO=days past ovulation
 EPT=early pregnancy test
 EWCM=egg white cervical mucous (best for optimum sperm travel)
 FRER=First Response Early Result (pregnancy test)
 FMU=first morning urine (best time to take a pregnancy test)
 HPT=home pregnancy test
 LMP=last menstrual period (start date)
 OPK=ovulation predictor kit
 POAS=pee on a stick (e.g. take a pregnancy test)
 TTC=trying to conceive

Monday, October 11, 2010

Lots of Kids

Oh how I would love to have a bunch of kids! I could so be like Michelle Duggar. I could just see us now....


But really I would love to have a large family. But unfortunately my body, nor my bank, can support that dream. If I would have it my way, I would have 2 more (girls of But Andy says he is done after one more. He already has 3 boys, one more is "it" for him. I just LOVE being pregnant and having babies. I feel like that is what I am made to do. But I guess one more is all I can get from Andy. I would love to adopt in a few years (well more then a few...more like 10). Or even foster a few kids. So I guess I will have to see where we are at that point and maybe I will get my BIG family.
So I guess for now we will work on that "one more" for now!
Hey there is always grand babies...HEHE!

Sunday, October 10, 2010